This week I've been really down and not sure why. I have felt so distant from God this week after a couple of weeks with a lot of time off work that I spent with Him. I've wallowed in self-pity all week, asking God why He is so distant. I've asked Him to search my heart and remove any sin that was separating us. I read Hebrews 12 today that talks about how He disciplines His children, so I've wondered if maybe this is a season of discipline. I still don't know, but I came across this song on you tube tonight that really makes me think. Do I just want to feel close to God for me? For my sake? For my joy? For my comfort? Do I seek to worship God just for the way it makes me feel? If that's the case, my worship isn't really worship at all--at least worship of God. It is more of a worship of myself or of the feelings I get when I worship. God spoke to me through this song that I should be more concerned with living a life of worship by serving those in need and sharing the gospel with them than I should be about how close I feel to Him at any given time. So, here's the song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aCATrRLrQ4&feature=related
there is an "every body duck" song that I love for just that reason. It says "I can't feel you like others around me, I don't feel like kneeling or closing my eyes. Is there something wrong with my heart that I can't see, or do you feel love still when nobody cries?"
ReplyDelete1) i cried for the first time in a few weeks. thanks a whole lot.
ReplyDelete2)i love that brittany referrenced everybodyduck-bhaha!
3)i need to teach you how to link.
por que?
ReplyDeleteYes please teach me how to link!!! I'm dying to know! Brittney, I'll check that song out. What's the title?
ReplyDeleteBecause you are
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